It's a good question.

"I do want this. I want us to be able to use the Vice to help. I'm just... scared, sometimes. I'm sorry." He needs to find his confidence again, the confidence that has had him making animals well for years here, on his own. Detlef takes a breath. "It's good. I'm good. Don't mind me."

He's started something. Now he has to hope it's the right sort of something.