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Johannes Dain ([personal profile] shepherddain) wrote in [community profile] northclifflogs2020-01-25 12:20 pm

[Open and Closed] did someone ask for a small crisis of faith

WHO: Dain, some closed prompts, and YOU
WHAT: Dain's in a bit of a tailspin and people who have been Worried about the presence of a Shepherd in the village may notice that something is different
WHEN: Now-ish, late January
WHERE: All over


A | Open

For almost two months, Dain was a friendly presence around the village, offering help where needed and cheerful conversation otherwise. Not even the arrival of the soldiers seemed to change that much, particularly when small clashes started occurring and Dain could help smooth some of them over. He always acted more like someone part of the community than someone apart from it, a person who cared and wanted to help.

Something changes that. It's not completely clear what -- it could be the situation where a member of the Watch was publicly flogged, or it could be Sir Theobald of Haguenne and his blindingly golden locks. Whatever the reason, seemingly overnight Dain's behaviour changes; he's more distant, more aloof, more preoccupied. He's more likely to watch than to participate, whether inside the tavern or the chapel or outside in the freezing village streets, keeping apart from others. Unconsciously or not, he acts much more like a Shepherd, only there to observe and nothing more.

This is not to say he stops being Dain. If someone else initiates conversation, he's as friendly as always, lighting up like a switch is flipped. If someone asks for help, he's always happy to give it. But he's rarely the one to initiate anymore.


B | Adhemar

Dain tried to get an early night, in the somewhat vain hope he would get a good night's sleep for once. Perhaps somewhat predictably, it doesn't work. So he gives up on that, wraps himself in coat and scarf, and settles in the chapel's library with some candles and the books.

It's something he used to do, back when he was starting his training and felt like he was going to snap from the mental tension of villifying the Night. He would read, anything and everything related to the Path of Light he could find, after everyone else was asleep, and silently contradict everything he knew to be wrong. It helped, in a counterintuitive sort of way -- not least because the one time he was caught, his instructors had only been impressed by his dedication -- and over the years it became meditative. It's been several months since the last time Dain had this much trouble sleeping, so he takes the first book off the pile and opens it to a random page in the middle, ready to start from whatever passage he lands on.

It doesn't work. Every time he's able to focus, the worry consumes him again.

To an outside observer, it looks like Dain's searching for a particular book and being stymied at every turn; he reads a page or two, exhales a frustrated breath, swaps books, tries again. His movements grow jerkier as the minutes wear on, until at last he slams a book shut with enough force that the candle wobbles on the table, and he lays his head down on top of it with a hoarse groan.

If he can't even do this properly anymore, how can he expect to keep his poker face in Cliffside?
mysteriumtremendum: (thinking)

B

[personal profile] mysteriumtremendum 2020-01-25 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The Shepherd isn't the only resident of the vicarage who occasionally keeps odd hours. This is just the first time that they have crossed paths.

Having returned from one of his secretive midnight sojourns, Adhemar is still dressed for the outdoors when he first pauses, silent and still, at the open door to the library to watch the Shepherd's back as he works. He checks his coat pocket swiftly and some of the tension eases from his shoulders; the key to his personal collection of more damning apocrypha remains in place, and it does not look as though the high shelves where the books are bracketed has been disturbed. But he cannot be sure without getting a closer look, and he cannot get a closer look without announcing his presence to Dain. An infuriating conundrum.

He opts to prepare for the worst, and kneels with extreme caution to withdraw a knife from a concealed pocket in his boot. A nimble bit of fingerwork tucks it instead up the sleeve of his coat--

--but before he can step forward into the light, Dain slams the tome in front of him forcefully down upon the tabletop and all but collapses atop it. Startled, Adhemar regards him like one might a poisonous snake behaving erratically, one that it would be far safer to treat to a wide berth just in case its condition makes it more dangerous than normal. But a vulnerable opponent is more prone to making mistakes, and could be more easily overpowered, should the need arise.

He steps into the dim candlelight. "Brother Johannes," he observes quietly, allowing his face to express some surprise. "You seem unwell."
mysteriumtremendum: (trouble)

[personal profile] mysteriumtremendum 2020-01-26 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
Behind his back the knife slips from his sleeve and into his palm, and he has his fingers wrapped tightly about the hilt--

--then whatever fierce wind had possessed the Shepherd moments ago seems to fade, and when he sinks back into his chair with his eyes closed, Adhemar deftly and discreetly pockets his knife. Not time for that just yet after all.

Perhaps some intelligence gathering instead. His brows come together in an excellent and well practiced expression of mild concern, and he steps out of the doorway and into the library. "Bad dreams?"
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[personal profile] mysteriumtremendum 2020-01-26 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
The Shepherd's attention falls to the dull-looking book on the table in front of him, and Adhemar takes that opportunity to look up--up at the locked shelf of books that are so crucial to his work, and so damning in the wrong hands. A quick assessment of the lock reassures him that it hasn't been tampered with, which means the likelihood that Dain is trying to pull the wool over his eyes is low. Still, the impact to his own security, if he were to be incorrect, would be dramatic. He can't let his guard down.

Which means, of course, to continue behaving as normal, for there is no reason why the village vicar should not welcome conversation with a Shepherd.

"Please," he replies quietly, "make yourself comfortable. There are supplies for tea and coffee in the kitchen, which you may avail yourself of if you like." Then he pauses, deliberating over the wisdom of his next move, before he offers it anyway: "If you would prefer company or a listening ear, I can provide that for you." It's part of the job description.
mysteriumtremendum: (thinking)

[personal profile] mysteriumtremendum 2020-01-27 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"Something I thought would never change... is changing faster than I'd like."

Interesting. They are more alike than Adhemar could have expected. How unsettling.

"I thank you for the courtesy, but no," he answers with a subtle shake of his head and a thin smile. "While it aids my focus when writing homilies, I find it does little to help with falling asleep." He takes a step backwards and towards the door to the small library, intent on seeing himself out.

"If you change your mind, Brother Johannes--" about the listening ear, of course, "--you know where I can be found."

He could always use more leverage.
mysteriumtremendum: (atticus | the night watchman)

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[personal profile] mysteriumtremendum 2020-01-28 12:16 am (UTC)(link)
Where has Adhemar just been?
Edited (fuck) 2020-01-28 00:16 (UTC)
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A

[personal profile] pestler 2020-01-28 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Though Finian hasn't formally met Dain, he's grown used to seeing him around-- and it's hard not to associate the man's new distance with everything that happened with Lorne.

It's on one frigid evening that Dain finds himself with a (rather tall) ((ginger)) shadow, who comes up beside him, hands muffled under his upper arms to protect them from the cold.
"Wind's picking up," comes the amiable remark, "come inside for a cup of tea? It's getting dangerous out here."
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[personal profile] pestler 2020-01-31 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
The surgery is close by, and Finian leads the way inside, going immediately to put the kettle on over the fire. He pauses there to rub his hands together, blowing into them to warm them before he smiles apologetically at Dain.

"It's miserable this time of year," he says, "how are you handling it?"
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[personal profile] pestler 2020-02-06 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
"That's me," Finian confirms, beginning to root through his various tea blends for a good one.
"Yeah, I was born here or I'd probably agree. Been down to Cliffside once, in the summer, and thought it got too hot." He grins over his shoulder at the Shepherd. "I can't even imagine what it's like in Fairport."
pestler: (biting lip)

[personal profile] pestler 2020-02-08 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh. Really?"

Finian seems genuinely surprised by that. Everyone here is constantly having tea with each other, especially on cold days; it's just how they interact.

"My pleasure, of course." He's got the cups ready, but sits down to wait for the water to boil, his knees and elbows poking away from him like twigs off a sapling.
"If you don't mind my saying it," he says amiably, "we all kind of thought there'd be trouble, with you coming into town. The last time Shepherds were here it was." He winces.
"Grim business."
pestler: (shucks)

[personal profile] pestler 2020-02-11 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh," Finian says with a broadening smile, visibly relieved at Dain's revelation, "that's good. At least the ghosts stopped when the party went into the woods. They must've taken care of it."

The smile dwindles again at the question, and Finian suddenly looks pensive.
"They'd followed a man up the mountain," he says, "a-- a Profane." He quickly meets Dain's gaze, clearly trying to make the best impression he can. "When they brought him back down, they slit his throat in the square."

There's no comment on their method, but his expression says a lot.